What's a Girl to Do When it Rains?

Yesterday morning Jason informed me that we might face flooding again. I could see his anxiety.

It was this time last year that water rose and flooded our home 3 inches high within.

Jason started researching and gathering facts. Today we were concerned that the streets around our house might flood based on Jason's experience last year and the estimated rise of the river that was predicted. We took precaution and put things up high just in case before heading to Jason's parents to stay tonight. I know our anxieties will get easier with time and experience with the river. It is just hard watching it rise.

But at times, I still ask God, "Why? Why would this happen again? We live in a predicted 500 yr flood plane, not 1 yr!" My heart hurts for my husband who is reliving his traumatic experience and working through fears of our house being flooded again.

My heart sank on Monday night when I heard a tornado touched down near my friends in Arkansas.

30 minutes ago I got a call from a dear friend letting me know her cousin was injured in the tornado that ripped through Tuscaloosa. It took 3 hrs to find him and remove him from the debris. But they can't find his girlfriend who was with him.

So tragic. 

These lyrics keep coming to my mind.

"If all that’s good and true
comes from heaven
Then what’s a girl to do
when it rains? 

And I’m saying
Why, why, why, why?
I’m shaking a fist in the dark,
and I’m asking
Why, why, why, why?
Why does it keep getting harder
To say thanks?"

Nichole Nordeman, "To Say Thanks"

I don't know what to say as I pray to God right now. I just know He is with me and that He knows my heart. He is comforting souls in this moment. Many are finding Him for the first time. 

He is still in control.

Foo Fighters - Come Alive

"I lay there in the dark and I close my eyes
You saved me the day that you came alive

Nothing more to give
I can finally come alive
Your life into me
I can finally breathe
Come alive
I lay there in the dark
Open my eyes
You saved me the day that you came alive"

Well,

AMEN! :)

Foo Fighters, "Come Alive"

Why Easter?

Easter (and Christmas) are the most demanding times for me at work. 

I've been planning/prepping marketing pieces for weeks and coordinating bands and production crews for our campuses. 

It is so easy for me to forget that Easter is a time to remember and celebrate Christ's death and resurrection. 

The gift that saved us.

I'm so thankful I have the opportunity to be a part of the experiences at Cross Point. This year I am leading worship at our Dickson and Downtown campuses!

Join me in praying for those who don't know Christ that choose to come to Easter services at Cross Point and churches all over the World this weekend. May they see Him through His people and experience His love. 

If you live in the Nashville area and don't have Easter plans yet, we would love to see you at one of our services! Click here for address info.

The Problem of the Versus

I've always had a good ear when it comes to music. My parents put me in piano lessons after hearing me (at the age of 5) tinker out "Right Here Waiting" on my Fisher Price piano. 

But my ear is stronger than my singing voice. My ear knows what it wants my voice to do, but something doesn't translate. My ear wants to hear perfection. 

It leaves a strong taste of dissatisfaction.

I have this same problem when it comes to my head versus my heart. My heart loves to rule.

"I'm a war of head versus heart
And it's always this way
My head is weak, my heart always speaks
Before I know what it will say"

Death Cab For Cutie, "Crooked Teeth"

I over analyze everything and base my decisions on feelings. I run into this time and time again in my marriage. 

-This doesn't feel right. 

-I used to feel different.

-I don't feel like it.

My head tries to fight back. Rational thoughts take a swing at my irrational feelings, but the heart knocks out their teeth!

As I navigate through these two sets of "versus," I've come to the conclusion that,

I can't let my ear tell me my voice it's never good enough.

AND

I can't let my heart question every decisions my head helps me make.

I'm going to work on finding the volume knobs on my ear and heart. I need to turn them down just a bit. I hope to one day say with much satisfaction,

"Ahhhh, that's sounds and feels much better." :)