The Problem of the Versus

I've always had a good ear when it comes to music. My parents put me in piano lessons after hearing me (at the age of 5) tinker out "Right Here Waiting" on my Fisher Price piano. 

But my ear is stronger than my singing voice. My ear knows what it wants my voice to do, but something doesn't translate. My ear wants to hear perfection. 

It leaves a strong taste of dissatisfaction.

I have this same problem when it comes to my head versus my heart. My heart loves to rule.

"I'm a war of head versus heart
And it's always this way
My head is weak, my heart always speaks
Before I know what it will say"

Death Cab For Cutie, "Crooked Teeth"

I over analyze everything and base my decisions on feelings. I run into this time and time again in my marriage. 

-This doesn't feel right. 

-I used to feel different.

-I don't feel like it.

My head tries to fight back. Rational thoughts take a swing at my irrational feelings, but the heart knocks out their teeth!

As I navigate through these two sets of "versus," I've come to the conclusion that,

I can't let my ear tell me my voice it's never good enough.

AND

I can't let my heart question every decisions my head helps me make.

I'm going to work on finding the volume knobs on my ear and heart. I need to turn them down just a bit. I hope to one day say with much satisfaction,

"Ahhhh, that's sounds and feels much better." :)